This is week four of the astrology class I’m taking. Not just any astrology class, but applied astrology. It’s all fun and games until memorizing the signs, planets, and houses isn’t enough. When it is time to grapple with the more difficult parts of my chart, it’s more than challenging.

This week is all about the North Node (or the True Node). In brief, the North Node represents your life’s purpose, what you decided to overcome, to learn more about, to do better at in this lifetime. (Yes, we pick that before we agree to come to another lifetime.)

Your North Node is also your less comfortable shadow side —the part you fight with or dance around, depending on the situation.

I have dug deep into my shadow over the years. I have studied my Enneagram, Myers-Briggs Personality, experienced profound meditation, had hypnotherapy, engaged in talk therapy for long periods, and so many other approaches. I have always been curious about myself. For some reason, it now feels even more daunting, possibly because I have done so much work that I can’t imagine what might be left.

Here’s what I have nailed in this lifetime: managing groundedness (earth) with high energy (fire). Those two elements do not require any assistance from me (except to occasionally curb them).

Here’s what I must continually work on: emotions (water.) Again, I have learned over the years what’s worth the tears and what isn’t. I have learned about grief and joy and so much in between. But I’m still here, so there is more to learn.

What scares you when you think about going deep?

I know from all my experiences that it’s only scary until you get in there. I can accept myself as I am, and I let go of thoughts and traumas that held me back. So, what could be left? Maybe nothing. Maybe more. But I’ll never know until I do the work.

When clients come to me for a reading or hypnotherapy session, I appreciate that the reasons for our presence and the lessons we are here to learn are varied, and all for a good reason. When you choose to work with me, you can expect a judgment-free experience.

We are here to help one another. I am happy and honored to help you.

Mary